weddings

i may quite possibly be the only bride in the world who is not really looking forward to her wedding day. there is so much about weddings that is just not 'me' and it turns out that trying to make a wedding more 'me' is almost entirely impossible. here's 'me' ...

doesn't like to wear dresses
doesn't like to be the center of attention
doesn't like having her picture taken
doesn't like people staring at her
doesn't like to show her emotions in public
doesn't like fancy formal restaurants
doesn't like cloth napkins
doesn't like it when food goes to waste
doesn't like cake

this is supposed to be the greatest day of my life? i'm looking forward to july 21. :) oh, and the day that we get to register for gifts. and the showers. and making invitations. and lots of other things surrounding the wedding, really. just not the actual event.

unless maybe there would be some way to have the wedding without me in it? i'll wear jeans and eat ice cream and be the person behind the camera instead of in front of it. maybe i could make a cardboard cutout of myself... hmmm...